Mercy

Every single time I do this. Unconsciously of course. I start to notice things. Google things. Compare things. I asked my sister to send me pictures of her kids legs today. She could have said " calm yourself crazy", but she didn't, she promptly sent the pictures. She reminded me that Tay is an active girl, and there are lots of explanations for her bruises. Truth- my worry for her will never end. It just won't. I walk a fine line of letting her live, yet letting nothing go. Scans are creeping up and it makes me feel like I can't breathe. Because cancer is out of control in this world. It's running an absolute muck. Stealing our loved ones....the suffering it's caused....the heart ache,....the worry. I ran from it when Tay was done. I sold our house, moved back home, and tried to start over. I remember not wanting to put in on her school medical form. My sister said " this is a part of her story", and that really hit me. It is. My prayers are that it is a story of survival. Scans do something to me... I won't be right until I know that are CLEAR. Please pray for my girl. Scan Date- February- 4th.  *Three year post treatment date- February 14th!!!!